How awesome

It's late...I have to work in 11 hours..I could go to bed and get some sleep...Still have to get up early and do the usual "grown up" things. Today was weird. I was super emotional, my thoughts were running rampant. Thoughts of Logos, my mom, my dad, the kids at Hargis.. I wanted to cry soo many times and yet my Lord comforted me every time. Gosh, I can't even explain what it was that I was feeling.....Whatever it was I didn't like it. The day got better, I spent 20 mins with my kids talking about 1 John 1:9 and God's righteousness....I can't really explain everything I said to them.. but man, they got it.......I mainly talked about that to them because, I , myself was having problems with getting into fellowship that day. God is soo crazy..I love it. After I set it aside( my out-of-fellowship-ness) and I let him use me, He reached out to those kids..It wasn't me, it was all about Him..His glory..I wonder about Paul the Apostle..How he felt in times like these..
I just feel like rambling because this is how I feel..Paul used to be Saul..Who killed Christians, didn't believe in Christ, thought he was a fake..And God put him on his face and showed him Christ..literally..... AND CHANGED Saul to Paul and ......the rest is history..So to speak. Look how God used Paul..He went from killing Christians to becoming one himself..God transformed Paul. He became an apostle for the Lord! It is soo amazing to me....To live by the sword you must die by the sword..and that's exactally what Paul did. He befriended people,they betrayed him, led them to Christ, was persecuted for it, made a few mistakes here and there, but God was with him every step of the way...Crazy..How awesome is our God..