Transformed

Recently I've been feeling a sense of aching in my soul. I need a reawakening in my life with the Lord.
I put Him on the back burner so much and yet He graciously takes me back everytime I come crawling back.
Even within the last 48 hours I've been praying for a reconstruction in my soul.. For everything. I've got messed up beliefs that aren't true, and ones that are buried from long ago, and ones that I've learned from a non believing family. Things that so badly need to be torn down an replaced with the promises of God. So many things that really need to change, and I need to totally submit myself to the work of the Spirit.. And it's going to be a moment by moment thing and it's gonna take effort and it's gonna be hard.. But I need Him so much.
I was reading today, in Galatians, and how much Paul was soo frustrated with them.. and I got to thinking if I knew Paul, he would call me foolish everyday. He would probably be frustrated with me more often then them...
It's not like I'm struggling with what they were doing, like following the law or getting circumcised or anything.....
It's old man beliefs and acting on those instead of choosing to walk in the Spirit...
So I'm praying that I be transformed by the renewing of my mind, so I can know the Fathers will.. Cuz His is so perfect and mine is soo not...