Patience

Everyone always tells me that praying for patience is "REALLY something to pray for"...Well "they" were right..Gosh it was been on my heart soo much lately and it has been really hard. Recently it seems like God has made these amazing things happen around me and my reaction is nothing. Yes I am sooo amazingly excited that my closest friends are getting married..I truly am, I can't believe how blessed they are. And then Satan steps in and stabs me where it hurts the worse. I hate feeling that I don't measure up to these amazing women that God is blessing..And I know better, man do I know better. I guess what I am saying is that, YES I am super excited that everyone is getting engaged/married, BUT at the same time I am feeling a little insecure. WHICH I KNOW is stupid because God has something stored up for me..Mybe not a man but something other than that..Something that will please Him soo much..And really that is all I want. I want to be the woman that He needs me to be. And if that means being single and being available then thats the way it's gotta be. I really want to glorify HIm through all of this, and I know I've been failing here and there but I've gotta keep my eyes on Him and not the world. This reminds me of the song Only You..
Only You can fill my heart with laughter
Only You can answer my hearts cry
OHh how true that is..He will always know..And my prayer has been for Him to keep revieling himself to me..SooI can make it through all of this..Even though it is hard I know where my heart needs to be..